The Round-about

I dread the days that are about to come, and yet have waited for it.

Ah. I had intended to write about something else entirely, but... That was not working for me... In fact, I noticed, a lot of things are just not working out lately.



The Calendar is not working out.
I am running around doing as much as I can in a day, and yet, there are still not enough hours to do the things I need to do.

I made a checklist, see, and I find that every time I get to cross one thing off it, I need to add a couple more to it. So this is like done, need to do, need to do. Done, need to do, need to do. Done, need to do, need to do... Sounds like dance moves.


I have been extended with an invitation to go to Mongolia for free on the 13th. Yes, of June. Will be leaving from Beijing, so will need to BE in Beijing before the 12th. I shouldn't complain, because it was up to me to accept the invite, but come on, when you're piss broke but want to see more of the world, you don't pass up charity now do you?

Theoretically, I could have said no. But theory and real life never go hand in hand.

I would have had until the end of the month had I chosen NOT to tag along to Altantuya's homeland. So now everything goes into hyperdrive. Plans for one month crammed into less than two weeks.

Consequences of my choice:
there are now some people I won't get to see, and amongst them are probably some who I'll never see again (ever) The thought of this is killing me from inside.

Especially after somebody kindly pointed out:
"So the problem is you."

Thanks.



The projected cashflow is not working out.
When I dated Brilliant, he had the nerve to point out that so many parts of me, and so many things I own were falling apart. To name a few: my phone, my shoes, my hair. My skin.

At that point, none of those were actually falling apart. Only they fell below his standards. Well, except for my hair - which really IS in a mess *sigh*

But now, as if cursed, all those things he listed down have actually self destruct. In the last week, I have had to get a new phone. In the next few days, I will need new sneakers. And new lots of things. Even need to get a haircut. Getting hair done in Beijing is ridiculously EXPENSIVE. (especially if you want the English speaking hairdressing salons)

But the sneakers bit is long overdue. I've been wearing this same pair of white trainers since A-Levels. It's trekked the world with me, and sat through 4 years of law and exams. Hard to part with since it's already molded to my feet...

I find letting go a little hard to do.
I'm just too sentimental.
Or just too mental.

The budget I had previously worked on now belongs in the trash can.


The makeup is not working out.
I still cannot believe what a hard time I had filling up an order with Everyday Minerals. Between my cousin Kau, and I, we still couldn't fill up a kit of SIX items. So we had to get Jade in on it and split it three ways.

What in the world happened to us? Where did the makeup addicts go?

After purging myself of the collection my hoarding habits built, I guess I'm all about simplifying/minimalizing now. 1-2-3, 1-2-3, 1-2-3. What is it with me and dancing steps?

I've been swept clear off my feet by the wave of BB Cream obsession. I am so consumed in it/by it that I have stopped stalking the usual people on their blogs, and started stalking new ones I found on a BB Cream forum.



Because somebody was kind enough to offer to buy a tube for me, I chose one of the cheaper brands to try out (SkinFood). This one to be exact:

Aloe Sun BB Cream SPF20 PA+

There are many other brands selling the stuff, they all claim it to be an all in one product - moisturiser, liquid foundation, concealer, sun protector, skin supplement.. bla bla. A magic elixir, if you will. Google it and see what you find on it.

I just treat it as a healing tinted moisturizer, and it is (IMHO) exactly that. If anyone wonders, the one I got has not much coverage, not much sun protection, not much oil control... but I really like how soft it makes my skin feel. And I love that it makes me look dewy, as opposed to how foundations would make me look a greased frying pan. IT DOES NOT OXIDIZE even after 10 hours. It does take care of my flaky cheek problem and doesn't cause me to itch and scratch. So all thumbs up.

1-2-3: BB, blush stick, tinted lipbalm.

And I dance off the stage of the makeup scene.



The living is not working out.
So my exams are over. I'm enjoying my freedom. Yippee. What joy summer brings!

I've been robbed of sleep. Robbed of food. Robbed of time. Shaken so many hands (ikh). From road trips and attending dinners and BBQs, to cleaning the house to emptying the fridge to scrubbing the bath... what I'd give to have my very own personal slave! (but then there's that entire thing about slavery being illegal now *sigh*)

I'm pretty sure those who are still not done with the finals are turning into the living dead themselves, and if so, we should have an army of them very soon courtesy of the UoL external LLB.

Zombies'd be a great aid in world destruction, but there is still the possibility of the herd running wild and uncontrollable.

Suggestions on how we are to deal with them then:




The brain is not working out.
I complain that my head is not really working, but I behave as if my heart does not work either. I must apologize.

Some of my loved ones are going through a hard time right now, and I really, really, truly, truly, deeply am sorry that I haven't been around to help out.

Some friend I turned out to be, huh? T____T



I can't define it, but you know I love you. And if you don't, or you forgot, I'm telling you now. You know I'll destroy whoever hurts you. Or cause you misery. Just hang in there.

*HUGS*



Kau, bagaimana telescope itu?
Cik Duyung, amacam rumah baru? Kasi alamat tau :D

Jade, Odysseus, Geri, Darmar, etc:
FREEDOM: T-Minus ONE DAY!